Thursday 31 December 2015
Next year wish? Haha i have it! To be kinder than this year, always wish for others well-being and help n respect others anytime and anywhere i can, not only for the next year, but also the following year, following following year, following following following year ..... until the day i met my end! Yesh!!!! Be the EXTREME person i can be !!! I AM EXTREME!!!!!!! YOSH!!!!! A SHOUT TOWARDS THE SKY!!!!! EXTREMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! YOSH!
Wednesday 9 December 2015
Sometimes, i will feel very lonely.. not having a person who truly understand me or truly know me.. not even my family, and i dun even have any best friend now.. i mean friend that are closer to me... somehow to the one i called as best friend in past few months or etc, i felt betrayed by her.. but, its ok ... its her choice ... wanting to be with who its her choice, nor i did make any effort to be friend with her again.. Although i did ask her out for dinner once after that fight we had, but well.. to be truth i was really disappointed.. she tried to ask me out once for drinks, but due to the assignment i need to handle that time, i denied her.. and she didn't try to approach me agn.. yet she's my good friend, i mean closest friend to me (in the past).. why didn't she try 1 more time, why didn't she put more effort when dealing with me? she always have problem with her other friends, but she always try so hard to be friends with them. when its me, i dunno.. maybe she thinks that i will always be there. Do you know how i feel when i saw her suddenly get so close with the other friend after we rarely meet? to me it seems like i am not needed. Did she know how i feel when i approached her for dinner and she just put almost all her time with her other best friend over me? i am like a outsider in 'their' group.. well tell you the truth that feeling is not good.. Why didn't try to approach me once more? Why don't she put more effort in having me as a friend? you know i was really tired of this.. i didnt want to approach her anymore, until she approach me.. just once, what i want is just once.. just once i hoped that she will really put effort in our friendship.. In the past, i was so frustrate, i tried and tried and tried to be close with her..and finally i convinced myself to let her go.. i do not want to care anymore.. but in the end we got back as closer friend.. yet when there's a problem with our friendship again.. i can see she did not put much effort into holding our friendship.. even when she's going to graduate.. truly i'm very disappointed with her.. but its ok .. again, its her choice.. i cannot control her nor her life.. well maybe she's disappointed with me as well? not that i care anymore now~ Yes after that, i was adapted to living alone~ although i was alone from the start, well you can say i was being even more alone now~ without true friends or family by my side.. yes i do not have really close relationship with my family members, i know that, but they are truly the best family i can get, they are kind and treat me so well.. but its just that they dont understand the real me.. again, its ok .. i don't blame them.. im at fault as well.. because i dun really give them chance to know the real me.. but somehow i get lonely.. even though i have adapted or used to being alone.. well they say humans are "herd" creatures, they need to be with their flock. Anyhow, i have myself to depend on.. so its ok.. people will be alone eventually.. so its not a big matter.. its just that sometimes im very lonely.. sometimes, well you can say most of the time im very happy being alone~ i didnt need to put on masks in front of people or even instant messaging.. i hate that alot.. really i hoped i can show everyone who i am, who i truly am.. i did.. tried...just a bit.. but~ well you know~ people don't like~ so i create distant with them, not too close, not too far... but there's a wall between it. because i really hoped that i will have someone who know who i truly am and happy for it.. [although the real me is not that good~ haha, well anyhow i still want someone who know me for who i am not that stupid mask ] whether is couple, friend or family or etc~ but i know i shouldnt hope to much, because i did not put effort on knowing who they truly are as well.. again i didnt blame anyone ~ despite the fact that i wanted someone who know who i truly am, i still hoped that no one knows me, even if i will be very lonely.. because the burden arose when you really want them in your life, wanted to be as good as possible so they don't get away from you, from your life... well this happens with the ex-closest friend i said earlier in this post. she knows a lot about me, but den again she don't really know me.. you know this is kinda complicated shit~ well what ever~ since our relationship have degraded from "closest friend" to well what can i say~ normal friend. just a title and feelings~ not much anyway~ we are still friend~ but den again~[as a conclusion] from all those lonely shit i have said~ i preferred to be alone.. and i am really happy with it~ human contact or relationship now really burden me.. and well you know my communication skill really below normal~ cause living alone for so many years~ blabla~ again~ alone banzai!!! its lonely sometimes~ not all the time~ i love to be alone~ so BANZAI!!~ XDD
for me XD
for me XD
Tuesday 8 December 2015
Monday 7 December 2015
Tuesday 24 November 2015
还记得,在小时候,非常的喜欢看故事书,那些101夜啊~童话故事啊~恩~都很美好呢~虽然(现在)我在某方面不太赞同他们的逻辑(故事的逻辑),可是我还是很喜欢那些故事呢!哈哈!知道吗!最近我刚刚遇到我的小学同学。。他告诉我以前的我是很安静的呢!不太吵得!(其实现在也是,我不喜欢太吵和一直说话),但是呢,我一些工作朋友都不相信呢。。哈哈!虽然现在我真的是满吵得,但是其实我真的不太喜欢说话的。。我虽然有时候喜欢吵。。但是大多数的我其实很安静,也很喜欢安静的~我喜欢自己一个人~静静的看书~玩游戏~看动漫~等等的!哈哈!其实在很多人的围绕着我,其实我真的有时候觉得很不舒服的。。哎。。这种感觉不太好噢?哈哈!哎~不知道啦~我希望以后呢~可以自己一个人,和一群无家可归的小朋友,和小动物~组成一个家庭,我做他们的,姐姐,然后给他们一个家~然后自己也有一个自己建立起来的家~然后呢,不需要再管其他是事情。。就这样开开心心的和家人一起生活~我很喜欢这种感觉~啊!不是说我不喜欢现在自己的家人哦!他们是超好的!可是我就是希望跟小朋友无忧无虑的生活~简简单单,开开心心的就好了~哈哈!然后最重要的就是!我可以无忧无虑的做自己~这样就好了~
Friday 20 November 2015
我看我永远都不会了解战争的意义。。
战争,为了什么?保护?如果每个人都因为战争而死亡,那么到底是保护什么。说什么要保护家人,家园,如果要保护,是永远都不会让他有被侵略的机会,更何况是战争。
报仇?我是不知道报仇的真正含义。对我来说,报仇就是,我杀你重要的人,你生气,然后为了报仇我又要杀回你们的。。失去重要的人是很痛苦的。。但是,这样杀来杀去,最后痛苦的还是自己和自己最重要的人,何必呢。。 但是,我是不知道当时的痛。。所以我真的不懂,也不想懂。。因为对我来说,这些杀来杀去,最后只会是两败俱伤。。对两方都没有利益,我不想吃这种亏。。 ~ 哈哈~到头来我还是贪心,贪生怕死。。~
想要改变世界?占有世界?那更离谱。。这只是那个人自己,无知,傲慢和贪心的愿望而已。。什么都想要,到最后你会发现其实你什么都没有。。想要改变世界?那么为什么不要先改变自己?让自己变得更好的人。。你觉得自己是世界最完美,最好的人?那么,你就是世界最不完美的。。因为最完美的。。只有更好的。。
我不喜欢战争,战争只会让大家付出很大的代价,让无辜的人痛苦。。然后让下一代,下下一代,下下下一代,下下下下一代。。。染上了恐惧的颜色而已。。但是我知道这些都是不能避免的。。因为我们是人。。 人有七情六欲,贪生怕死,权利的诱惑,等等等等的东西。。 但是到头来我们其实就只是一个凡人。。不多不少。。死了,就只留下“身体”,你什么都不能带走。。 但是我觉得我们可以在生前做好事,至少可以留下好的回忆给自己,给家人,给下一代的人。。死了,告诉自己,这世我活得最棒的我,我毫不后悔,我的生活很精彩。。 虽然我知道每个人的观点不同。。但是,无知的我是知道没有一个人有剥夺别人生存的权利,也没有一个人有主宰世界的权利。。这个世界不是一个人的,是每个人的。。
战争,为了什么?保护?如果每个人都因为战争而死亡,那么到底是保护什么。说什么要保护家人,家园,如果要保护,是永远都不会让他有被侵略的机会,更何况是战争。
报仇?我是不知道报仇的真正含义。对我来说,报仇就是,我杀你重要的人,你生气,然后为了报仇我又要杀回你们的。。失去重要的人是很痛苦的。。但是,这样杀来杀去,最后痛苦的还是自己和自己最重要的人,何必呢。。 但是,我是不知道当时的痛。。所以我真的不懂,也不想懂。。因为对我来说,这些杀来杀去,最后只会是两败俱伤。。对两方都没有利益,我不想吃这种亏。。 ~ 哈哈~到头来我还是贪心,贪生怕死。。~
想要改变世界?占有世界?那更离谱。。这只是那个人自己,无知,傲慢和贪心的愿望而已。。什么都想要,到最后你会发现其实你什么都没有。。想要改变世界?那么为什么不要先改变自己?让自己变得更好的人。。你觉得自己是世界最完美,最好的人?那么,你就是世界最不完美的。。因为最完美的。。只有更好的。。
我不喜欢战争,战争只会让大家付出很大的代价,让无辜的人痛苦。。然后让下一代,下下一代,下下下一代,下下下下一代。。。染上了恐惧的颜色而已。。但是我知道这些都是不能避免的。。因为我们是人。。 人有七情六欲,贪生怕死,权利的诱惑,等等等等的东西。。 但是到头来我们其实就只是一个凡人。。不多不少。。死了,就只留下“身体”,你什么都不能带走。。 但是我觉得我们可以在生前做好事,至少可以留下好的回忆给自己,给家人,给下一代的人。。死了,告诉自己,这世我活得最棒的我,我毫不后悔,我的生活很精彩。。 虽然我知道每个人的观点不同。。但是,无知的我是知道没有一个人有剥夺别人生存的权利,也没有一个人有主宰世界的权利。。这个世界不是一个人的,是每个人的。。
Thursday 29 October 2015
does anyone read the lazy king light novel? ... I guess im getting his traits.... why am i not born in that era.. TT_TT just sleeping and slack around and you will get powers.. what a nice power and world to be in.... TT guess that will never happen to me... HATE PAPERWORK TO DAH MAXXX!!!! ZZZ
Stop whinning and complaining just do your work and finish it fast and you will get the time to sleep!
Urgh... but.. but.. there's more to come after this ... TT I just dun wanna do it!
Just do ittt!!! -- !!
(Internal conflict) == [i guess the lazy 1 wins....] TT URGHHHH!!!
Stop whinning and complaining just do your work and finish it fast and you will get the time to sleep!
Urgh... but.. but.. there's more to come after this ... TT I just dun wanna do it!
Just do ittt!!! -- !!
(Internal conflict) == [i guess the lazy 1 wins....] TT URGHHHH!!!
Wednesday 21 October 2015
Saturday 17 October 2015
Thursday 15 October 2015
Saturday 10 October 2015
一人做事,一人当,我做的错事,要怨要怪,我不会埋怨,这是我的错,但是如果以后发生,这些事情,我还是会去的。。虽然这次我的想帮助的心情,变成害了他。。 是,我是很怕去抓他。。我是很希望别人可以帮我去帮人。。是这样的想法是错的。。我是怕,我是没能力去帮别人。。但是我就是希望可以帮到!至少好过看到别人很惨不去帮别人,如果一味等着别人去帮,而自己不去主动帮,那么那个人,还是事, 是不是还是会遇到不好的事,那么那件事就不会有人帮。例如,如果有人被欺负,那么看到的人一个个都以为别人会去帮,而没有一个人去帮他,那么他不是就会永远被欺负吗?!是我是半桶水的好心,但是!如果还是遇到这种事情,我还是会选择这样!因为我觉得如果没人去帮他的话,那么他是不是永远都没人帮?!但是这次对,是我错了,我做错了!但是以后,我还是会去帮的!可是我不会再要大人帮了!也不会要他们在帮了!因为他们是没良心的!!!!要帮忙去埋一只动物很难吗?! 很难吗?!我没有去抱怨他们死在那儿,我就是想要他们入土为安而已,很难吗?!算了,这次是我的错,是我的错!我知道在这儿说很没用,但是就是想要抱怨一下,想要说说而已。。是,我就是一个这么软弱的人。。是我错了。。
Wednesday 7 October 2015
Monday 7 September 2015
Thursday 3 September 2015
Having a lecture class about using strong language, here's what i produced..
She has a wavy curly hair until her shoulder, big sparkling brown eyes and is always with her warm lovely smile pacifying everyone. She's the Micheal Jackson in our heart, unique, kind, tolerant and much much more. She keeps everything in order and make sure we have best. Her existence brings smile on our face.
残酷的岁月在他脸上画上了一条条的皱纹,头发也开始变白,他开始老了。。但是岁月还是不能和他那滔滔不绝的爱相比,在他眼神我看到了,坚强,力量,也看到了疲倦,他累了。。可是为了我们他还不能休息,他就是我们的大山,即便再累,再苦,他还是会告诉我们,不要怕,有什么事情爸爸在。心安了,但疼了。无论之前我们做了什么错事,他还是会原谅我们,就因为,我是你们的爸爸,这一句。。
爸爸,妈妈的爱是无限的。。他们的伟大,他们的爱比天大,包容了我们的一切,让我了解什么是无怨无悔,不计较于回报的爱。感谢你们为我们所做的一切,谢谢,我爱你们。。
(To be translated..)
She has a wavy curly hair until her shoulder, big sparkling brown eyes and is always with her warm lovely smile pacifying everyone. She's the Micheal Jackson in our heart, unique, kind, tolerant and much much more. She keeps everything in order and make sure we have best. Her existence brings smile on our face.
残酷的岁月在他脸上画上了一条条的皱纹,头发也开始变白,他开始老了。。但是岁月还是不能和他那滔滔不绝的爱相比,在他眼神我看到了,坚强,力量,也看到了疲倦,他累了。。可是为了我们他还不能休息,他就是我们的大山,即便再累,再苦,他还是会告诉我们,不要怕,有什么事情爸爸在。心安了,但疼了。无论之前我们做了什么错事,他还是会原谅我们,就因为,我是你们的爸爸,这一句。。
爸爸,妈妈的爱是无限的。。他们的伟大,他们的爱比天大,包容了我们的一切,让我了解什么是无怨无悔,不计较于回报的爱。感谢你们为我们所做的一切,谢谢,我爱你们。。
(To be translated..)
Wednesday 19 August 2015
刚刚看玩了金玉良缘,和花千骨这两部戏。。真的感受良多。。我学会了万事无绝对,无完全的对,错。。在金玉良缘的戏里,麒麟为了自己的娘亲,想要帮妈妈找回想了20年的孩子,所以欺骗了国家,欺骗了元宝,犯下了其君之罪,但是为了自己的妈妈,为了圆妈妈的梦,这是孝心啊!有错吗?但是欺骗就是错呀。。所以是对还是错呢?而在花千骨这戏里,花千骨为了帮师傅解毒,偷窃了神器,放了妖神出世,而霓漫天也为了炫风,家父的死,伤害了小骨,他们有错吗?在此我发现很多时候对于错,都是自己设定的。。每个人对于对,错,都有自己的看法,每个人都是不同的。。一切事情都没有一定的答案,一定的对,错。。所以我觉得一切都不能看得这么绝。。因为答案不知有一个。。我觉得答案在于你自己,在心中。。但是要切记我们一定不能因为一些不好的理由而做不好的事。。因为这确实是不好的,我相信很多人都是一样的吧?
Tuesday 18 August 2015
Sunday 16 August 2015
Saturday 8 August 2015
Friday 7 August 2015
Thursday 6 August 2015
Wednesday 5 August 2015
Tuesday 4 August 2015
Sunday 2 August 2015
Friday 31 July 2015
Tuesday 28 July 2015
过一个Sem我的朋友就要毕业了。。而我。。在多一个sem就毕业了。。 感觉好快。。 而且在最后那一个sem我应该会很颓废吧?哈哈我的朋友都不在了,我觉得我应该不会出去吃了。。 哈哈XD(超懒的我-3-。。
虽然这个学校不是一个很好的学校,反而还是个满差劲的学校。。可是,他却给了我很美好的回忆。。我应该会很想念这个学校吧?。。想念这个很宁静的时刻。。就要踏入生命的另外一段了。。好担心。。希望以后的我可以保持现在的自己。。不要掺入别人的纷争。。做好自己。。希望以后的我可以多多努力。。不需要很有钱。。但是一定要平安。。顺顺利利。。然后希望自己可以实现自己的梦想。。希望以后一切都会好好的。。就这样就好了。。
虽然这个学校不是一个很好的学校,反而还是个满差劲的学校。。可是,他却给了我很美好的回忆。。我应该会很想念这个学校吧?。。想念这个很宁静的时刻。。就要踏入生命的另外一段了。。好担心。。希望以后的我可以保持现在的自己。。不要掺入别人的纷争。。做好自己。。希望以后的我可以多多努力。。不需要很有钱。。但是一定要平安。。顺顺利利。。然后希望自己可以实现自己的梦想。。希望以后一切都会好好的。。就这样就好了。。
Thursday 23 July 2015
Wednesday 22 July 2015
Tuesday 21 July 2015
Saturday 18 July 2015
Tuesday 14 July 2015
Monday 13 July 2015
Sunday 12 July 2015
Friday 10 July 2015
Tuesday 7 July 2015
Friday 3 July 2015
Tuesday 30 June 2015
Sunday 28 June 2015
Monday 22 June 2015
Sunday 21 June 2015
Saturday 20 June 2015
Monday 8 June 2015
Sunday 7 June 2015
whhhyyyy!!! whyyy when u search close relationship, love.. etc ... most of it talks about boy and girl loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.......!!!!! aren't there any other love?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?! ZZZZZZ URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stress level go highhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh = =!!! i wanna sleeppppp!!! == !!
Friday 5 June 2015
Monday 1 June 2015
Friday 29 May 2015
Thursday 28 May 2015
Tuesday 26 May 2015
Thursday 21 May 2015
Even if no1 acknowledge you, no1 cares about I or no1 even notice about u.. remember.. U MUST be strong! U MUST acknowledge yourself, u MUST be confident.. and most importantly U MUST not lose yourselves... no matter what happened ... stay true.. stay strong, U are the best, be yourself!! 加油!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday 17 May 2015
Saturday 16 May 2015
Thursday 7 May 2015
An article from a book named Chicken soup for the soul that i find it very inspiring.
This story start off, from a boy named mark who was walking back from school and saw a boy ahead of him tripped and dropped all of the things he carried. Mark helped him to carry a portion of the things back since they were going the same way. After the conversation with that boy, mark found out his name (bill) and his troubles with the subjects and had just broken up with his girlfriend.
Bill reaches his home first so he invited Mark to his house for a drink and to watch television. That afternoon went off pleasantly with few laughs and some small talk, then Mark went home. After that day, they continually see each other around the school and high school after graduation from junior high school. Three weeks before the graduation, Bill asked Mark out for a talk. He reminded Mark about the days when they first met. He asked him, "Do you ever wonder why i was carrying so many things home that day?". He told Mark, on that day actually he cleaned his locker because he didn't want to leave a mess for anyone else. He secretly stored some of his mother sleeping pills and was planning to commit suicide when he reached home. But after the conversation and laughing with Mark, he realised that if he killed himself, he would have missed those time with him. "So you see, Mark, when you picked up my books that day, you did a lot more. You saved my life"
----- John W.Schlatter
After seeing this article.. Special feelings came to me...
It really teaches me that, sometimes a little help from you might be a big help to others.. You don't need to be rich to help people.. You just need a kind heart to help...
This story start off, from a boy named mark who was walking back from school and saw a boy ahead of him tripped and dropped all of the things he carried. Mark helped him to carry a portion of the things back since they were going the same way. After the conversation with that boy, mark found out his name (bill) and his troubles with the subjects and had just broken up with his girlfriend.
Bill reaches his home first so he invited Mark to his house for a drink and to watch television. That afternoon went off pleasantly with few laughs and some small talk, then Mark went home. After that day, they continually see each other around the school and high school after graduation from junior high school. Three weeks before the graduation, Bill asked Mark out for a talk. He reminded Mark about the days when they first met. He asked him, "Do you ever wonder why i was carrying so many things home that day?". He told Mark, on that day actually he cleaned his locker because he didn't want to leave a mess for anyone else. He secretly stored some of his mother sleeping pills and was planning to commit suicide when he reached home. But after the conversation and laughing with Mark, he realised that if he killed himself, he would have missed those time with him. "So you see, Mark, when you picked up my books that day, you did a lot more. You saved my life"
----- John W.Schlatter
After seeing this article.. Special feelings came to me...
It really teaches me that, sometimes a little help from you might be a big help to others.. You don't need to be rich to help people.. You just need a kind heart to help...
Sunday 26 April 2015
Friday 24 April 2015
Wednesday 22 April 2015
Monday 20 April 2015
Friday 17 April 2015
Thursday 16 April 2015
Wednesday 15 April 2015
Sunday 12 April 2015
Wednesday 8 April 2015
Tuesday 31 March 2015
Monday 30 March 2015
Wednesday 25 March 2015
我真的不明白。。一个人的价值真的要由他们的样貌来定义吗?为什么一个人长得很丑就要给别人骂得狗血零头,叫他们从这个世界上消失呢?为什么长得丑就要消失呢?他们也是人,也是有生命的。。每个人都不同的啊。。虽然他们长得不好看,但是这不完全代表他们啊?最重要是他们的内心不是吗?如果要我选择,一个长得好看,可是到处害人的人,和一个长得不好看,可是内心很善良的人,我宁愿选择那个长得不好看的。。一个人的长相不是永远的,但是内心才是阿。。我觉得那些骂他们的人,真的很不应该,长相不是由他们定的,是天生的,他们也不能选择,那么为什么还要这么骂他们呢?我觉得如果一个人觉得别人长得不好看,在心里这么觉得,想一想然后忘了就好啦,为什么非要骂他们呢?他们又没有得罪你,知不知道这样会伤害到那些人?长得不好看并不是他们的错,更不是他们父母的错阿。。
真的无法理解那些因为别人的样貌就要人消失和骂人的人。。
真的无法理解那些因为别人的样貌就要人消失和骂人的人。。
Monday 23 March 2015
Friday 20 March 2015
听到你这样说你妹妹,我觉得很伤心,就觉得如果你能在给你的妹妹多一点爱心,关心,还有支持,不要一直管它,骂他,贬低她,其实不坏的。。我这么说因为自己也经过,做过这样的事情。。不知怎么的特别能理解哈哈~虽然不知道你是怎么想,你的感受,可能这样说还有一点自私,可是就觉得现在你妹妹是很痛苦的。。而且跟得到每个人关爱的你相比,你是幸福的。。希望你可以多给你妹妹关爱,关心,让他可以走出这个难关。。现在的她,很需要别人的爱心。。总觉得她就像以前的我,对世界充满了恨。。哈哈可能这就是导致我这么奇怪的原因?哈哈哈!虽然这都是以我的观点,但是还是真的希望你可以多关心她。。不要一直要她改变成你想的那样。。那不是她。。不要一直骂他,他也有感觉的。。我知道虽然你也给他很多爱心了,可是请多忍耐她,直到她看到家的美好,世界的美好为此。。而且虽然只有你关心她,支持她,可是至少还有一个人关心她,让他知道自己是不孤单的,而且是有人支持的。。希望那个妹妹,更加坚强,早已找到自己,自己的理想,不要自暴自弃,愿你一切都好。。
Monday 16 March 2015
Saturday 14 March 2015
Thursday 12 March 2015
Tuesday 10 March 2015
Saturday 7 March 2015
Friday 6 March 2015
Thursday 5 March 2015
Tuesday 3 March 2015
Tuesday 24 February 2015
It's so true!! when you meet your authentic self~ you only have one choice ~ that is to love yourself even more ! <3 <3 I may not be the best person in the world, but im definitely the best me <3 Thankiu world, parents, siblings ~ Thanks for giving birth to me and take care of me! Most importantly! thanks myself ! I love u so much! <3 Some people call no relationship with others as single ~ but i call it ~ relationship with myself ! ^^ hehe ^^
Saturday 21 February 2015
Friday 20 February 2015
Monday 16 February 2015
Sunday 15 February 2015
Sunday 8 February 2015
一个又是这样,第二个又是这样。。真是的,你们可不可以如果要作什么决定,可不可以先告诉我还是我们一起讨论,一起做?我知道,我是不够好,不厉害,我不像你们一样,可以有很多idea,还是有专业的做法。。可是我们都是学生不是吗?都在学习啊?我知道以你们的能力,你们是很厉害了,可是你们也可不可以给别人一个机会去学?写script的时候,通知都没有一声,把idea写下来,加东西,你们都没有告诉我,请问你们还有没有当我是你们组的人?!如果你觉得你和她,就你们两个是两个人一组的话,那么你又何必跟我一组呢?好,就算是老师要求,但是你们这样;就好像把我不看在眼里,完全不当我是你们组的,然后又要我做你们所要求的,不觉得这样很过分吗?!你们当我是什么?!你们的狗吗?以前是这样,现在又是这样,我知道我不厉害,可是请你们可不可以至少尊重我?一点点也好?为什么,为什么,每一次,每一次都是这样,被别人当透明人看?!我受够了!!!!!!!!!!你们每一个人都一样!!!算了!我不想在理了!!就因为你们是我朋友,当你们这样对我的时候,我伤的就越深,别人怎样,我还不会这么在意,但是就因为你们是我的朋友。。朋友。。算了,我不想再碰这些什么友情的东西了!每一次,每一次,都换来这样的对待,算了。。真的算了!可能我真的有一点小气,看不透,这么点小事,就要这样吗?可是,知不知道,上一次的事,伤得我真的很深,还以为离开了他们,就不会再发生这些事了。。怎料到,还会有第二次,第三次,现在是第四次了。。一直被别人当透明人的感受你们了解吗?就感觉你好像不活在这个世界上呢。。算了。。现在我还有什么朋友,就珍惜他们吧。。以后,不想再多交什么朋友了。。一个人也很好的啊~至少比起被很多朋友包围,但是每一次发觉自己是被丢下,然后就痛上加痛的时候好很多了。。自己一个人,至少想做什么就做什么,而我的开心,伤心,也不是掌握在别人的手中,一个人啊,很好的哦!!
现在的我很消极吧?给我一些时间,让我储存完能量后在出发吧。。至少现在,让我悲伤一阵子,很快就会好回的!而且我也想为那些被我伤害的人做一点东西。。我知道我伤害了他们,但是我控制不了我自己,而偏偏自己又是那种脸部有问题的人,得罪的人很多,很愧疚的说。。给我时间吧。。让时间当我的医生。。
现在的我很消极吧?给我一些时间,让我储存完能量后在出发吧。。至少现在,让我悲伤一阵子,很快就会好回的!而且我也想为那些被我伤害的人做一点东西。。我知道我伤害了他们,但是我控制不了我自己,而偏偏自己又是那种脸部有问题的人,得罪的人很多,很愧疚的说。。给我时间吧。。让时间当我的医生。。
Friday 6 February 2015
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Sunday 18 January 2015
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Friday 16 January 2015
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